the name... is dalton
Hidradenitis Suppurativa is gross.

TMI to follow.

Under the skin of my armpit there is a pocket of what used to hold pus. It’s empty ish now. There’s still a hole in my skin where it drained and when I move my arm certain ways, that pocket fills with air and pus. Then, when I move it again, I can hear the air escaping and/or pus sloshing around.

It makes me slightly nauseous everytime I hear it =/ I hope these antibiotics kick in soon.

Who’s bright idea was out for me to quit smoking in the same three days i have Malcolm overnight?

Stay asleep.

STAY ASLEEP. STAY ASLEEP. STAY ASLEEP.

Y U NO STAY ASLEEP!?!?!

I hate this.

Why do I have to have a migraine on Malcolm Day >: (

Tonight is one of the reasons I still smoke.
I think

I want to grow my hair out a bit more. Like, Sam Winchester length in season 7ish.  I’ve always wanted to try growing out my hair again.

I’ve decided

October shall be Overhaul October.

Drastic changes in my life that I WILL adhere to.

- No smoking
- No video games during the month
- No Netflix, Hulu, etc
- Work on changing my self
- Better eating
- Actual exercise

Mostly, I just want to be happy with myself again, which I haven’t been for a long time. This needs to happen and support from my friends is greatly needed. I just hope I can get it.

I want to be able to run again. I want to eventually fit into a medium shirt. I want to eventually fit into size 36 jeans again. I want to feel and look healthy.

I don’t want to be worried about if I’m going to be able to see my son graduate because I’ve made poor decisions in my life.

This must happen. This WILL happen.

It’s stuff like this page that gives me hope for the future.

It’s stuff like this page that gives me hope for the future.

Dear Followers

I don’t care about what you reblog, I care about what you have to personally say. Text and original posts are my favourites of yours, much more interesting than the picture of Dean Winchester in gym shorts I’ve seen 100 Million times.

Well…

Today wasn’t the best day, but what had to be done was done. Now to just pick up and move forward however I can.

Another day of feeling like something terrible is on the horizon. But, whatever it may be, I hope it happens fast so I can power through it.

Ugh.

Just ugh. There’s a pit in my stomach that probably won’t fill itself. Just feel something bad is or has happened.

I think I need to go to the doctor. My lymph nodes have been swelling off and on for years but I’ve never had it looked at. Just tired of the pain consistently either in my armpits or my groin area….

I’m too fat to sleep.

My arms go numb from laying on them and that wakes me up. I need to start walking or something, it’s gotten out of hand..

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